Monday, April 12, 2010

At a crossroads



"Without faith it is impossible to please God..." Hebrews 11:6

Wow! My first blog post in ages.

So much has happened since I last blogged. In early March, I was let go from the radio job where I've worked for a lifetime...29 years.

It was both expected and unexpected. Ever since the station was sold to another company in May a year ago, I've anticipated that this day was coming at some point. Nevertheless, when it did happen, it was swiftly and unexpectedly.

Now, at the age of (mumbling under my breath), I'm truly at a crossroads. I'm looking for another job, hopefully in the field I love.

Never have I been more aware of my need for God's guidance and direction. Since my dismissal from the radio station, I've seen his hand already, assuring me that he's there and that he cares about me and my future. (What a humbling thought--the God of the Universe cares about my life.)

I really don't know what the future holds, but it's actually a freeing feeling to give it to God.

So, blogging again...

Funnily enough, my current situation has made me turn back to this blog. Well, I do have more time on my hands at the moment, although I'm still doing voice-over work. So whether anybody cares to read it or not, I think I'll be blogging more now. We'll see.

I close with the following lyrics to Francesca Batistelli's "Letting Go," which really resonate with me. This is exactly how I feel:


My heart beats, standing on the edge
But my feet have finally left the ledge

Like an acrobat
There’s no turning back

I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me, and my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace
The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone


I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing You are holding me
I’m not afraid

Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
Feels like I’m falling and this is the life for me

3 comments:

Randy said...

Cindy,
It's a worn-out phrase but still holds merit. When God closes one door he opens another. Personally, I left full-time radio and things have changed. Getting married in August, just came from UVU and signed up for more college classes, working on an internet show that I hope will launch by spring and found a printer for my book when it gets finished!

I said that to say this: I had a dear lady that works for Michael English tell me that I had to "let go." If God wants me back in radio, great. However, if I trust him he may lead me into areas of even greater blessing. I couldn't see it then, but I certainly do now.

This applies to all of us. You too! You know this already, just keep your hands open and ask God to fill it with the next chapter of your life. He loves you. And so do your friends. I'm one of them.

Love in Jesus,

Randy

Ashley said...

I know how I felt when I was let go after only 3 years at a job I hated. I can't imagine the feelings you're experiencing. I'm glad you're feeling freedom in leaving things up to God and His timetable. I know it can be frustrating, though, when you don't see answers. I'm praying for you.

I am, however, glad you'll be getting back to blogging. I've always enjoyed your writing, and I'm looking forward to more! Welcome back!

Solameanie said...

I know that you know how I feel about this. It really is the stations' loss. I also know that the Lord's hand is on you, and His purpose for you has never changed. You're still the best female radio voice in the area as far as I'm concerned. Please keep in touch.

Love ya,
Joel

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